Poet of Fall

Cerita Sedih 20/3/2009 Part II

Posted in Uncategorized by vien88 on March 21, 2009

20 Mac 2009;

malam tu tamatlah acara Drama Pentas bahagian 2, yang diakhiri oleh drama pentas ala 60-am oleh kolej kesembilan… yang agak bosan dan tipikal. Sebelum tu kolej kedua, yang main drama emo2, menggunakan kerusi sebagai simbolism. Cool, but mesej tak sampai. Drama pentas dimulakan dengan Raja Kap Sungai, oleh kolej kelima. Walaupun agak kebudak-budakan, tapi drama tu paling best pada malam tu. At least perhatian tak lari ke tempat lain, tapi cousin aku kaco lak dengan panggilan telepon.

Aku rekod drama tu guna handicam. Yang slack nye aku nye suara ckp kat tepon mesti ter-rekod skalik. D: Dah ler rekod tak profesional.

Zu citer kat aku ada barang kecilnye terjatuh dalam longkang. Dengan harapan benda tu tak hanyut oleh air hujan dia nak capai benda tu kalau sempat. Sehabisnye acara drama pentas, kami jalan di sidewalk opposite Dewan Tunku Chancellor, depan Bangunan Peperiksaan. Cabaran pertama; Guna spotlight handicam aku, kami mengintai di antara lobang2 besi yang tutup longkang tu kalo ada tak accessory henfon pemberian cik yam tuh.

Nasib baik kering lagi longkang tu… dan Alhamdulillah kami jumpa. Namun cabaran tidak berakhir di situ. Kena pulak fikir bagaimana nak retrieve that item. Zu jumpa kayu panjang, tapi still tak cukup panjang. Kalo ye pon takde benda yang bole buat benda tu stick kat kayu (ala kartun la) seperti chewing gum.

Dan kami mengambil keputusan untuk menangkat besi yang berat tu. Cabaran seterusnya (yang kedua), sebab kekuatan masing2 tak sama kuat, jadi ada masalah sikit nak angkat. Sampai sakit2 belakang. Rasa cam seluar nak terkoyak pon ada. Cabaran ketiga ialah yang paling mencabar, iaitu menahan malu depan saksi2 yang lalu dalam sekelip mata di atas jalan sehala tu.

Seolah2 langit menghina kami, turunlah titisan air sedikit demi sedikit. Cabaran keempat; hujan renyai. Dengan initiatif yang tinggi, kami berjaya buka lubang tu 2/3. Oleh sebab Zu yang lebih kurus, dan rasa tanggungjawab terhadap item tu, dia pon nak turun masuk dalam dan ambil. Tapi cabaran ketiga masih berjalan… kalau la dapat hentikan masa. Takde la rasa malu kita berdua. Zu siap sengih2, posing2 kat longkang tu nak tahan malu. Aku tunjuk belakang aku kat tempat laluan saksi nak sorok muka, siap pegang handicam.

Cuba ko bayangkan ko dalam kereta, lalu kat depan DTC tu pastu nampak 2 orang pompuan kat tepi jalan, sorang badan separuh dalam longkang, sorang lagi tengah pegang video camera seolah2 tengah buat penggambaran. Mereka balik ke tempat kediaman mesti automatik citer kat kawan/roommate/awek tentang apa yang diorang nampak. WARGH! moga mereka tak sempat cam muka kita!

Cabaran keempat semakin meningkat level nya. Hujan semakin lebat, “cepat la amik!! hujan dah ni!!”. Segala keayuan dikorbankan time tu, akhirnya berjaya mengambil semula aksesori tu. Lantas kami berlari2 ke arah teduh dalam hujan yang tak beberapa nak heavy sangat tu.

Tahniah Zu, demi pemberian kawan yang berharga bagumu, kau sanggup gadai maruah. Rasa malu pihak aku lak aku tak hiraukan sangat… aku just puas hati dapat tolong member. (rasa cam watak manga lak. boley buat komik seh)

Malam tu lepak kat 4th. Esmat nak tengok drama kat vid cam aku tapi habis bateri?!??! Spotlight gune byk sgt power kot…

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Cerita sedih 20/3/2009 part I

Posted in Life by vien88 on March 20, 2009

Salah satu pepatah infamous alter-ego aku… “Apa itu kawan…?” (sepertimana aku persoalkan istilah ‘cinta’)

Sebenarnya aku pernah persoalkan maksud disebalik perkataan tu… masa tu zaman aku emo lagi. Aku dah lama dan berusaha keras mengetepikan fikiran negatif. Tapi setiap kali ‘darkside’ aku bangun, mesti sekali sekala tertimbul soalan tu lagi. Dan tadi…tadi kan… dia bangun…

Ada kawan… pentingkan pelajaran…

Ada kawan yang pentingkan cinta…

Ada kawan yang pentingkan family…

Ada kawan yang pentingkan kerja…

Ada kawan yang ikut kehendak dan fikiran kawan…

Ada kawan yang tak macam kawan…atau berlakon jadi kawan.

Ada kawan yang betul2 mengharap…

….

Alkisah seorang kawan yang hari jumaat sepatutnya join dalam diskusi projek untuk 2nd year, namun dapat pula khabar yang keluarga nya ingin ke KL pada hari itu bersama adiknya yang dah lama terperangkap kat MRSM tuh. So dia korbankan masa buat projek tu dengan masa untuk spend time dgn keluarga. Dia rasa serba salah sikit biar diorang camtu je, tapi tugas utama dia ialah buat comic…. kan?

Enuff third person view… Beberapa hari lepas dah plan nak tengok kawan2 se-jurusan dengan kita nak tengok diorang berlakon dalam drama pentas dalam ni. Puas aku promote sepanjang minggu =D. Puas aku convince. Dan puas hatiku mereka setuju nak tengok kawan2 kita perform.

Pada hari waktu siang sebelum drama itu, darkside seolah2 mengigau dan berkata… mesti tak jadik punya malam ni. Tapi tak kira, aku dah lama excited nak tengok drama. Aku fikir positif dan dapat bayangkan camane kita ramai2 sokong ikhwan dan rodi berlakon. Hati lagi gembira bila Cik Yam tanya aku jadi pergi ke tak sebab orang lain pon nak pergi sekali. Harapan tinggi siot… tak tipu.

Aku ingat nak balik petang sikit…sempat lagi join diorang. Diorang siap call lagi “tak paksa” etc etc… tapi masalahnye ayah aku kena pergi ofis. Habis pukul 6. So terpaksa la balik lewat drp Time Square (kebahagiaan melanda di jiwa masa shopping di situ). Sebelum balik, mak aku dah lama nak try makan sandwich Subway. Maka kami ke situ untuk tapau sandwich, dan aku tidak lupa nak beli soft cookie yang enak belaka.

“Tunggu kejap!” aku cakap kat akak kaunter tu, “Aku nak bilang berapa banyak nak beli dahulu”

Satu…dua… tiga… estimate 7 orang termasuk aku malam ni. Tapi aku beli extra just in case ada extra member. Aku dah melambatkan pergerakan baris semata2 untuk mengira berapa banyak biskut nak beli, dan dengan riang ria aku purchase 8 keping nak bagi kawan2.

Sambil2 mesej dengan Zu, didapati bilangan ahli kumpulan yang dikatakan nak menyaksikan drama pentas malam ni berkurang. Sampailah ke bilik Zu, (waa lama tak jumpe dia) tolak lagi sorang. In the end, 3 orang je yang pergi. Mak aih… Allah je yang taw… keperitan di lubuk hati time tu. Argh…dah ler AJK pon slalu 1/3 je datang… ni kena cam deja vu lak. Agaknye aku ditakdirkan dapat peristiwa begini kot sentiasa? Balik Batu Pahat pon nak jumpa geng kita 4 orang tengok SORANG je datang. SAH, takdir aku begini. Tapi Zu cakap.. “takpelah, at least Yam ada”.

Heh…apalah nasib… biskut tersorok dalam beg dengan tujuan nak surprise orang. It’s pathetic… my plan tu surprise people is kinda wasted. But cik Yam kata…takpela, dia makan utk orang lain. LOL. At least kita leh enjoy makan biskut lebih kan.

Masalahnye sekarang… bukan skali je janji termungkir. OK.. janji Melayu pon dah cukup untuk buat aku dendam…apatah lagi ‘janji mungkir’. Lagi2 kalo mula2 ye ye excited nak lepak sama2, tetiba menjelang hari temujanji…takde mood la, busy la, study la, dating la, malas la… adoi… aku sedar… orang yang ajak lepak ni bukan kawan baik, bukan kawan sejati korang. Tapi…entahla… kalo aku nak tetiba kensel plan ni… aku rasa serba salah la. Kadang2 kalo aku takde mood pon, aku still teman kawan keluar kalo dia takde orang teman. Walopun tujuan dia kuar takde kaitan dengan aku… cuba bayangkan… dah semangat gila buat janji (walopun tak sebut dengan mulut), tetiba lalalala tak jadi pergi laaa~

…aku tau…betapa sakitnya… kalo kita minta orang teman, tapi di-reject. Tu pasal… most of the time… aku lebih suka pergi sini sana seorang diri. Tak nyusahkan orang… tak libatkan orang lain dalam perkara yang takde kaitan dengan diorang. Kalo nak ikut, silakan. Kalo taknak ok la. Aku nak ajak orang teman pon aku fikir tiga empat kali… sebab aku takot risiko the “no” answer, plan cancel… rasa malu… rasa sedih… rasa marah kat orang tu. Bila orang suruh aku teman, aku tak nafikan aku malas nak ikot kalo takde kaitan… tapi aku fikir perasaan dia kalo kena susah2 cari orang lain untuk teman (aku taw sebab aku pon mengalami benda tu). Fikir perasaan dia kalo kata “sorry, i can’t”. In the end… aku teman… because aku tak nak dia kongsi nasib yang sama dengan aku. Kadang2 tak ajak teman pon aku ikut je.

Hmm aku leh terima ni sebagai karma. Atau qada’ dan qadar… maybe sebab aku dah beberapa kali absent kat meeting mana2 ke. K fine… tapi nasib baik ada Cik Yam dengan Zu (TIKET FREE!!!). Fun gak sendiri2 menge-spoil babak sedih drama lain. Kalo ramai2 pon bukan dapat resonance together pon.. mesti terpisah 2-3 puak, yang buat lawak/bincang sama sendiri.

Either orang lain yang agak selfish memikirkan tentang perasaan orang lain, atau aku sendiri yang macam tu. Maybe aku sendiri yang mengharap sangat? Argh… letih aku. Kenapa aku mesti ada perasaan tu…Maybe ada hikmahnye darkside aku separuh jaga. Tak trust orang… tak yakin kat orang… aku nak…diri ku yang dulu.

Sifat waspada tu penting…supaya aku tak sakiti diri sendiri.

nyaaa…

aku emo kejap. Takyah la nak sorry sorry makan lori dgn rayu2. Aku malas la nak layan. Aku terima je ujian ni… Buat kechik dan rodi, thanks for the entertaining drama. aku konfem nak pakai Tshirt korang XD

next cerita sedih…ada lawak sikit lol.

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Tag-o-rama

Posted in Uncategorized by vien88 on March 18, 2009

Nothing serious yet, so hear me tag.

Your last..

Beverage = air masak. DM habis air manis D:
Phone call = Otou-sama
Song you listened to = Final Fantasy Prelude
Cry = er… erm… masa tengok citer Code Geass R2 hampir nangis. I’m kinda frozen hearted lately…

Have you ever..
Dated someone twice = Aku bukan pompuan gatal
Been cheated on = Ex aku laki gatal. Pernah la…
Kissed someone & regretted it = Yes. Puas aku cuci bibir gune clorox.
Lost someone special = He used to be so special, i don’t deny it. But no more…

In the past month, have you..
Fallen out of love = Nope…
Laughed until you cried = Tak ingat…
Met someone who changed your life = Maybe, without realizing who or when. but if i wanna list them, I’d rather not >///>
Found out someone was talking about you = Yeah, I know.

Do you..
Have any pets = My fluffy orange cat, Oliver
Want to change your name = If I could make it shorter
You ever talked to a person named Tom = of all people, why Tom?

What..
Time did you wake up today = 7.06 am
Were you doing at midnight last night = Lepak bilik Norra, pilih background music untuk filem.
Something you cannot wait for = Fridays
Last time you saw your father = Kejap lagi….
Your name = [unable to process data]
Elementary/Primary School = SK Bukit Damansara, Sk Bukit Soga (sekolah cipan)
High School = SMK Convent Batu Pahat
Hair color = hitam…dan putih =D

Your firsts..
Surgery = Nein
Piercing = Never
Best friend = Confidential…
Sport you joined = Handball lol
Pet = Hamsters…called Qoji.
Vacation = When I was setahun jagung, probably in Hong Kong..? Like I remember the events during toddler-hood.

Currently..
Eating = my life away lol…
Drinking = air masak?
Waiting = My dad

Your future..
Want kids = No way, I hope.
Want to get married = Happiness lives shorter than life could; thus, better not risk it.
Careers in mind = Physicist, Researcher, Mythbuster, Mad Scientist, Character Designer, Comic Artist, Novellist… Hikkikomori/Hermit.

Do you believe in..
Yourself = Not really
Miracles = God’s miracles, yea
Love at first sight = Only in Vincent Valentine’s case
Heaven = Yes
Kiss on the first date = tak sabo2. Nope
Angels = Yeah

Answer truthfully..
Is there one person you want to be with right now = Nobody
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time = Aku bukan pompuan gatal
Do you believe in God = Yes, although my faith ain’t strong enough.

3 more left…

‘Wartawan Maut Ditendang Bintang Cemerlang’

Posted in Life by vien88 on March 17, 2009

Ntah brapa minggu dah aku abandon Poet of Fall. D:

Maaf kerana lama tak update. Tapi apa sangat la blog aku ni…. tak baca pon takpe. Bukan ada info penting pon :P.

Aku terlalu busy. Ada free time pon internet connection cam sucky.

Sebenarnye ada benda lagi serious nak tulis…ada review nak tulis. Banyak draf disediakan… Tapi sebab kekurangan free time, aku biar pending pending lar. Oleh itu izinkan aku entertain anda dengan Mastika Parody aku. Why Mastika? cos my lecturer kat matrics dulu suka sebut “Mati masuk Mastika” yang membawa maksud tersirat ‘mati dengan cara yang aneh‘.

“Wartawan Maut Ditendang Selebriti Cemerlang”

seorang wartawan dari majalah GOSSIP YOU meninggal dunia akibat ditendang oleh seorang bintang anugerah cemerlang. Mangsa dijumpai menonggeng di tepi jalan namun pihak polis gagal mencari saksi bagi kejadian tersebut

Punca kematian diketahui daripada bekas tapak kasut Asadi yang sudah haus yang tertampal di muka si mati. Beberapa minit kemudian, datangnya seorang pelajar ‘cemerlang’ dari Sekolah Jalan Tiga (merupakan sekolah tepi jalan sahaja, kerana pihak sekolah tidak mempunyai idea untuk namakan sekolah tersebut) yang mengakui dengan bangganya bahawa dia yang membunuh mangsa itu
“Dia terlalu mendesak saya. Itu hak saya untuk tidak memberi maklumat peribadi!” katanya. Penduduk di kawasan perumahan itu setuju dengan pembunuh itu dan meyokong tindakan ‘wajar’nya itu. Ini adalah kerana wartawan tersebut terkenal dengan perwatakan menjengkelkannya itu. Oleh itu, si pembunuh berjaya melepaskan diri daripada tahanan polis

“Saya tak sanggup nak bawa dia ke lokap, kerana saya ni gay” kata polis Lans Kopral Bodo bin Sengal. Sesudah akhirnya siasatan, mayat si mati dibawa ke pusat penyelidikan untuk diselidik. bintang cemerlang pula didapati mengidap penyakit ‘gila kuat gila’ beberapa minit kemudian.

….

Ini hasil karya yang terbentuk daripada chatting YM antara aku dengan cousin aku, di mana cousin aku memainkan watak ‘bintang cemerlang’ sebab dia menang anugerah cemerlang kat skolah dia. Aku pulak jadi wartawan yang mati tertonggeng tuh cos aku yang sibuk tanya dia pasal perasaan dia time ambil hadiah lolz.

Sabtu ni nak pergi ACGC kat Tropicana Mall dengan dia. Jom la pi~

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Aku benci…

Posted in Life by vien88 on February 24, 2009
IM IN DESPAIR

I'M IN DESPAIR

Aku dalam sengsara.

aku dalam derita…

Terlintas pulak persoalan.. “apakah tujuan sebenar aku masuk UM?” tak sangka pula kalau nak study sini kita kena jadi pelajar yang mengagungkan projek kolej semata2 nak dapat bilik penginapan selama setahun. Tapi serius aku cakap, masa aku first year dulu, takde satu pon projek yang menarik minat aku. Aku join pon sebab… entah la…saje nak tengok camane. Sume bosan2 belaka… aku buat doujinshi tensen2 pon lagi seronok. Maybe sebab ada kaitan dengan hobi aku.

Aku tak nafikan la aku jadi leka bila dapat masuk ke Universiti idamanku sejak kecil. Seronok sangat sampai lupa apa tujuan masuk menara gading. Aku dah regret bila tersenarai sebagai “di bawah pemerhatian” masa sem 1. Semester berikutnya aku improve, dan pointer still maintain. Masuk sem ni ingat nak improve lagi.. tapi biasala…orang procastinate. Orang yang suka tangguh kerja cam aku ni tak sesuai la jadi ketua biro ke apa2, memang takkan jalan la. Jalan pon lambat cam siput. Tapi tah la… aku nak back out, tapi dah terhasut, now it’s too late to step down. Sape suruh kesian kan orang lain sangat… in the end, aku sendiri perlu dikasihani…

Aku benci la…

Kuli yang tak faham bahasa, tak faham arahan, tak faham situasi, tak faham kesusahan ketua2 mereka. Haihh kami pon ada student life… suffer sama2 tak boleh ke. Aku dah korban waktu study, aku dah pernah ponteng kuliah just for this. Sebab aku tak trust diorang… but still aku takleh work alone. Ke aku ni tak cukup strict… ni yang dilema… kalo strict sangat kang cabut lari orang bawahan. Lembut sangat amik advantage lak. Ke aku ni cam taik sangat susah nak communicate dengan ahli2? Nak ngadu kat pihak atasan kena sound “JANGAN BAGI ALASAN” ohohoho macam diorang TAW je situasi camane. Ingat aku ada Geass ke nak control orang sesuka hati… (kalo ada best gak..)

Yep aku cam taik kot… masa free marathon anime. Bajet takde keje la…bajet nak study lepas tengok anime. Aku yang tak pandai urus masa kot.

Enuff self blame… yang buat aku geram ialah perangai budak2 setahun jagung ni. Gatal nak masuk projek je lebey. Nak dok kolej sangat… sanggup nyibukkan diri sampe takde masa dah. Benda ni dah jadi cam ritual nak bangkitkan si setan dalam diriku. Nak ngamok campak itu ini rasanye.

Aku perlu menangis. Tapi tak mampu. Ego menahan air mata. Tapi aku perlu nangis supaya boleh relieve serba sedikit rasa stres.

aku benci sume ni.

rasa cam nak bunuh diri. Nak diculik oleh orang bunian… padan muka keje tak jalan. don’t mourn for me.

benci…benci sangat. >_>

benci sgt sampe takde mood nak mencarut…. fucking shit.

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Road to Grammar Nazi-ness

Posted in Serious shit by vien88 on February 23, 2009

After reading hime-sama’s blog about the grammar thingy… it got me thinking a bit. I have to admit that I am slightly affected. Actually, it bothers me a long time ago when I was dubbed Grammar Nazi when I casually correct other people’s grammar. Knowing that this kind of attitude chases away fellow cyberfriends, I kept my ‘attacks’ moderate and gradually I got lazier to correct people. One reason why I got lazier is because I’m already used to seeing the same ol same ol, most of the time they’re tolerable… although some are just too bad that I don’t even know how to correct them.

lulz oka-sama

lulz oka-sama

Anyways, I reminisced on why I grew up becoming really sensitive towards English grammar. Back in my loli days, the Gramma Nazi Queen abused indulged me into a sea of educational English language books with the most annoying ever style of educating. Well, back then till this day, I know how annoying it seemed, but it certainly helped… a LOT. Other than that, I was exposed to a kid’s cartoon show (other than Sesame Street) which actually had an amazing storyline while it taught children proper grammar along the way. I remember the animated pink text on the black background displaying “she is not” –> “she isn’t”. IMO, adults should watch it too. It may be rather childish, but not as kiddy as Sesame Street, but the least you could do is to appreciate the ideas, plot and themes. This show introduced me to “computers”… it also had a dose of sci-fi, love triangle (+ unrequited love lol) and…. prison break!

not to forget…the A E I O U… I love you~! song XD

Back to reality. I went to a kindergarden where everyone speaks English (but mine was still kinda broken). My family environment is more towards rojak language. Sounds cool? I thought it was… until I enrolled into primary school, where suddenly everyone is speaking some sort of alien language 100%. It’s not like I don’t speak that language, it’s my mother tongue dammit! It’s just that I’m not used to it, I have trouble talking to friends and I suffer trying to understand what people are saying!!

ntah la masa kecik kena paksa ikat twintails..

ntah la masa kecik kena paksa ikat twintails..

But I managed to survive, thank goodness there are people who can actually speak English or switch or rojak. Most KL kids can at least speak in English casually without being condemned by anyone. Unlike the Johorians… oh man. Shifting to Johor gave me quite a culture shock. Almost no one can utter a word in English! Okay, perhaps it’s acceptable for Malays, but even the Chinese couldn’t (I don’t mean to sound like a racist in any way). Have you any idea how tensed I was?

Realizing how pathetic most kids are, I paid more attention to English class, especially when it comes to grammar lessons. Seeing how other’s (English) standard lower than mine motivated me to become better mwahahahah. As a result, I became more and more sensitive to grammatical errors and get easily ticked off whenever I see mistakes. Behind their backs,  I cursed how lame these people are. Evil much? Yes I was.

But all that was in my history, cos like I said earlier, I can tolerate minor errors now. Even if I see a handful amount of errors, I hold back my urge to snap.

Still, it ain’t as cool as ye think. Cos no matter how good I am in English, I still suck at Malay Language. I never get an A!! NEVARRR..!! Could it get any worse..? Yeah, it was when someone questioned me… “But aren’t you Malay?” … *dies* It’s kinda sad… I even had to go to Malay language tuition class (where there were only 2 Malay students, others are Chinese, cos other Malays seem to think that they are automatically expert in their mother tongue *rolls eye*. Oh but they went to English tuition class which I did not have to attend 8D).

Getting as high as A2 for BM in SPM is already enough to make me fly to Cloud 9, cos Finally, I saw an A next to Bahasa Melayu *cries happy tears*. How did I do it..? It’s still a mystery… but I sorta blame it on my essay paper, by then I’ve already had this Malay literature skills I gained from absorbing KOMSAS books. Unlike most people, I find the language used classic Malay tales ‘beautiful’. I might have stolen a few tricks and adapted it with the modern style.

Rolling back to the main topic, ah…where did I stop. Urge to snap eh… right.. yes. Most of the time, I choose to ignore these errors or pronunciation. But sometimes I did that do spice up a conversation… or just playfully say it hiding the serious tone. Well, someone has to do it right? Honestly, I don’t like seeing my friends being lost or misunderstood by those kind of mistakes. Maybe the way I correct it is kinda harsh, but that’s probably the way I am…? the way I do things? My natural reaction?

When dismissing my sincere action of teaching others, I do feel a little… well, hurt. Sure, I understand people have pride and ego, that they’d rather not look weak in others’ eyes. I’m like that too… but I slowly learn to accept other’s opinion or correction even if it takes 10 years. I’m that kind of person. So the conclusion is, don’t brush aside when someone is trying to be kind to you. I help correct grammatical errors without asking for a fee or reward – the English teachers at school are paid but they still fail to make most students experts in English anyway.

Rant and reminisce ends here. thank you |3. btw, I don’t think I have perfectly correct English either, if oka-san sees this she’d easily spot what is wrong (that’s one reason why I disclose this url from her XD )

Edit: A few nights ago, I had little headache, yet I still had to attend an important meeting. Each division representative had to say something about the rules for next week’s event… most of them spoke in English…and OH GOD. Like I said, i don’t mind minor errors but most of them; let’s say… their fluency is like a rod with countless number of cracks, dents and corrosion from one end to another. The ache in my head increased in amplitude, I got so frustrated that my thoughts went somewhere else now and then >,>

oh yes, lastly,  I apologize if you feel offended by this post.

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Antique Bakery (anime)

Posted in Review by vien88 on February 17, 2009

One day I randomly lurked for pics and suddenly found an interesting pic of a dude in chef costume with another dude in waiter costume. It was tagged, “Antique Bakery”.

I found the manga and read it…and got fascinated seeing four handsome men working in a western cake store. EMPAT jejaka tampan dalam satu kedai. Mana tak heaven tuh *___*. Mana ada kedai bakery kat midvalley bagi servis camtuh! It’s like a meido cafe for women; cakes served by really hot guys. DO WANT. Ahhaah lagi best masa scene… 4 orang did this natural pose masa customer datang. Terus jatuh hati customer (pompuan) tuh, sampai sanggup bayar lebih nak beli cake >O<. But the manga translation is not finished yet… so I decided to watch the Jdrama first, but the Jdrama tak habis download. And next my dream come true cos I found the anime!

The anime excluded a few unneccessary things, and presented the story in a slightly different way. Plotline is the same I think (lama tak baca manga), but the way it was presented agak membosankan. Jdrama lagi syok tengok interaksi dengan customer… but kalo bab character relationship, aku prefer yang dalam anime. Cos agak… slashable ahyahyahya… >///>. Hanya ada 12 episod, and it ended up with the main character finally accepting reality. Aiks… camtu je. There wasn’t a huge ‘bang’ that made them wanna move on although there is a certain climax. Yang tak brapa bagi impact sgt pon.

Character Analysis tiem

1. Tachibana Keiichiro

  • 30+ dude yang kaya raya for ‘some reason’ decided to open a small cake house decorated with antique furnitures. He had a stable carreer before this in a huge company, but when he decided to open this shop, his parents did not protest. Cam manja sangat kat dia je lol. Okay… the anime didn’t exactly show a solid reason why he sungguh2 wanna open this shop so that’s kind of a minus point. In the manga, he took extra lessons with the genius pattisier to hafal all the ingredients of each pastries. Ironically, he doesn’t fancy cakes… he fears cake, more like it.. for ‘some reason’. And for ‘some reason’, dia agak homophobic. And he has this awesome salesman skills that can attract customers (especially women), I think I myself would be a victim >0<.

2. Ono Yuusuke

  • Unshamefully introduced himself as “devilish gay” to Tachibana, just to warn him that his weird charm had cause a lot of trouble in his previous jobs. Even straight men can fall for him, so he fears getting fired because of his weird aura. Lucky him, his charm takde efek kat Tachibana. And actually, he used to be in love with Tachibana during high school but was heartlessly rejected (cos of the ‘some reason’ Tachibana has). Since then he…start… going out with… different kind of men… and end up… susah nak interact dengan perempuan >///>. Anyways, I like the anime Ono cos he has more character and naughty thoughts… while Ono in the Jdrama is agak expressionless and boring.

3. Kanda Eiji

  • A former light-weight boxer champion… who just had to quit his boxing carreer, and immediately went to work as pattisier in the cake house. Why? Cos he likes cake!s Dia siap merayu kat Ono nak jadi apprentice, and lucky for both of them (and tachibana), Eiji is not Ono’s type XD. Dalam manga cakap Ono tak minat dia cos Ono tak minat younger guys. Anyways… he’s the cutest among the four, both in anime/manga and Jdrama. Eiji appears to be very enthustiastic about becoming a pattisier… but in the Jdrama we are able to see his kesungguhan even more. Since cakes are secong to boxing, he’d do anything to get back into the ring.

4. Kobayakawa Chikage

  • Tachibana’s childhood friend, a son of Tachibana’s housekeeper. Although he is older than his “young master” (Tachibana), dia agak dumb… tapi he’s a reliable company for Tachibana, as a kid till his adult years. He’s the only guy Tachibana can hug (awww), and he was always by his waka‘s side ever since… the ‘some reason’ thingy. Sampai la besar dia riso kan waka nye. Ohahahha >///< He’s sweet, naive but really clumsy. And.. and… he kinda sanggup tolong some 40 year old woman to become pregnant >_>. Yeap, he may not look like it, but he is a dad already. Oyes, important point lupe… dia pakai sunglasses. He needs it cos he has bad eyesight or sensitive eyes ke hape. Jdrama version – he’s goddamn handsomuuu~  Both in anime/manga and Jdrama, he’s just an adorable adult… Honestly, I’d like to see more of him with Tachibana *blushes*

Animation wise… a bad combo of 2D and 3D animasi but i put that aside of course. Opening theme is kinda funky for an antique themed show, but that’s okay. BGM is not that memorable, yang paling aku ingat is probably the cover of a classical song. And some… pipe organ track.

Erm not much to say for a very short series… Maybe I can review more about the Jdrama. Hmm, I wonder if I can find the Kdrama version of Antique.. >w<

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25 things you haet about me TAG

Posted in tag by vien88 on February 15, 2009
*emos*

*emos*

hwahaha…it’s not a bout hate.. it’s about…

25 things you may not know about me… but now you know. Maybe you should know… So it’s no longer a secret… deny some truths if you wish. I do not mind =D

1. I daydream all the time. Explains why I appear dazed or not paying attention…
2. A shameful fujoshi. A guilty pleasure… |3
3. I dislike arguments. Rather than yelling at one another, I’d rather have a cold war.
4. I dislike (certain kind of) people in my own sex.
5. I think I would fall for a guy who can shed manly tears…. okay I like okama and probably has this weird attraction towards gays *headdesk*
6. I’ve been to USA before, but I was too little to remember much.
7. Okay other than that, I’ve been to Hong Kong too. So I can proudly say that I’ve already went overseas lol.
8. I started to complete my prayers 5 times a day when I was 17.
9. I’d rather become a subordinate than a leader. I wanna be the best subordinate ever!
10. When i was a kid I love Muzzy cartoon show, and I still do. It’s not well known, but it’s the best show for kids especially if you wanna learn proper grammar.
11. I started drawing because of my dad.
12. A lot of people asked why I choose science course instead of arts. Well, the truth is, my SPM result is good enough to undertake science field so I’d rather not lose that opportunity.
13. My art is not too commercial, except for my comic strips. I prefer drawing for myself than drawing for people. So it’s difficult for me to do requests.
14. I hate it when people ask me to draw their portraits. Take a photo of yourself, convert it to black and white, edit it with pencil sketch effect and VIOLA. You get a b&w portrait of yourself! Bottom line, i don’t wanna waste my time drawing what a camera can do instantly.
15. I know I’m partially wapanese (wannabe Japanese). DX
16. My ‘darkside’ is like an imaginary friend.
17. I’d rather be alone than having friends who may eventually hurt me.
18. Hmm though I said that… i kinda..hate to admit… that I am scared of… losing people who I’m close with… there i said it! >///<
19. I used to dance on stage to boyband songs lol
20. The last time I counted I own over 1000 original characters (since year 1997). But more than half of them are probably rejected/abandoned. The numbers are slowly increasing.
21. I may draw scary stuff (and may look scary too), but I avoid watching horror movies. I may LOL during the watch, but I will start freaking out later in the night. =_=|lll
22. Involved in doujinshi or self-published comics industry (lol) for 5 years already.
23. I wear socks whenever I wear roman sandals. Why? Cos it’s kinda like imitating the ‘tabi’. The main reason is to have the Japanese feel XD. Told ya I’m wapanese 😛 (Someone asked this Q before but I didn’t answer it directly lol)
24. I like being different. Up to the point I will start to dislike what most common people like, especially in terms of music. When EVERYONE likes the song A, I will HATE the song A.
25. I wear kain batik indoors

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Valentine’s Day Wrap-up

Posted in Life, Video by vien88 on February 14, 2009

Enjoy this video while reading this post. A Kingdom Hearts AMV, with the song Valentine’s Day by Linkin Park. I’ve no idea how good the video is cos lama gile nak load *curses connection*. But yang penting, I love this song. This is special for ronery dudes out there ^^

Valentine’s Day – Linkin Park

My insides are turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And held the darkness over day, that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so disatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you’re gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
(I used to be my own protection but not now)
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
(Cuz my mind has lost direction somehow)
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
(I used to be my own protection but not now)
On a Valentine’s Day, On a Valentine’s Day
(Cuz my mind has lost direction somehow)

***

…..

On a Valentine’s day… I wished my cat Hepi Varentain cos he’s the only male who loves me XD. lol bestiality… but i think my cat’s tendency is towards humans than tabby-cats. Weird.

Okay… on the valentine’s day i woke up late. Then I went out with my grandparents lololololol. So lame…but oh well, it’s been a while since I go out with them. At least diorang belanja makan. So ronery…ronery much that I takde keje send Valentine sms to mai yuri harem predators deady and mana (yes i is a victim!! T__T *in denial*).

Masuk kedai CD, ingat nak beli varentain presento to myself, but the album i wanna look for habis stok T_T. But then…i found something betta… Princess Princess and Antique Cake House DVD!!! Although I know too well the subs are gonna be lame, but it brings me happiness~! So I thought I should just buy it in case I am bored staying in college. Besides… campus wireless is not giving me justice to download anything. Oleh sebab desperate sgt nak recharge myself with anime awesom, aku beli je lah. Nak tunggu Ookami Senpai bagi aku file Code Geass R2 bukan main lama >_>. (oyea..my oji-san and oba-san bought some music CDs. Despite of being traditional, they’re still moderately modern for their age O_O)

Actually I found another DVD that goes at the same league as those two… the title is even more apparent. I half regret not buying it… but the reason why I didn’t is because I don’t wanna get disappointed if it’s bad although it’s in the area of my peculiar interest. I’ve seen previews for Princess2, and read Antique Cake Store manga (and Jdrama) so I dared buying it. I’d look for previews for that anime… if I like it, I’m gonna look for the oppurtunity to go to OU with oji-san and oba-san again. >:D *niat jahat*

Hopefully it’s still there. Or else I’d cry sampai banjir KL.

But I still cannot believe I found ANTIQUE CAKE STORE DVD there!!! Princess2 aku tak heran la… but Antique!! Godammit! Wuahahahahaha!!! *dies of happiness*

Today is bestest varentain evarrrr >///>

after that… aku bertekad nak study or watch Antique. Instead i spent a lot of time writing blog while barging through the gooey wireless connection. D:

In the end… the day is rather boring. Oyea…suddenly i chat with some random girl (irl) and we talk about minor personal stuff. We’ve met before, but we barely even utter a word to each other…suddenly we sat in one table to ‘study’ and talk about random stuff.

Oaaaa… still, boring day is booooring…

Favourite Couples

Posted in Uncategorized by vien88 on February 14, 2009

Oleh sebab aku single sekarang, aku takde pape nak cakap pasal boyfren atau girlfren. Erm..nak bernostalgia pasal valentine’s day zaman kapel dulu pon…tarak. Cos takde memori yang indah dengan exbf on 14 Feb for 3 years. Cos he’s like “apa gune wish valentine kalo x dpt jumpe” lulz… ler, stakat wish pon ok. Paling kureng pon bagi hadiah belated ke lukis untuk aku pon boley gak. Tak best langsung. Elok la, or else aku asyik teringat2 kenangan terindah.

Now I shall speak about my favourite couples in anime and video game. Oh no no real life stuff here. I is otaku *megane twinkles*. Take note that they are not in order…

WARNING: Okay read with an open mind… sebab ada mix of hetero and homo couples in one post.
Fave Hetero couples

Tamaki x Haruhi (shes a girl)

Tamaki x Haruhi (she's a girl)


1. Cloud x Tifa (Final Fantasy VII series)

  • There’s a debate about who is Cloud’s heroine; Aerith or Tifa. In the official Yoshitaka Amano’s artwork, it may appear that Aerith is the heroine. And that she’s more feminine than Tifa, she’s more likely his main love interest. But I don’t deny that Cloud has feelings for Aerith and even has this necrophillic behaviour towards her (as seen in Advent Children movie). But hey, she’s goddamn dead! probably alive in the lifestream, but still, she’s no longer breathing. That’s why I strongly support Cloud x Tifa, with Tifa being his childhood friend. And lemme remind you that Cloud wants to become a SOLDIER for Tifa. And Tifa isn’t your average heroine…she kicks ass and she’s as sweet as a lady should be.

2. Kenshin x Tomoe (Rurouni Kenshin)

  • Sape dah tengok Samurai X anime, you’ll probably think it’s weird why it isn’t Kenshin x Kaoru. Well, tell ya what, for those who didn’t read the manga sampai habis or watch the OVA… Tomoe is Kenshin’s first love, and deceased wife. Mula2 they’re pretending to be husband and wife… then they sorta fell in love with each other mysteriously. Er…tapi..tak nampak sangat. Cos Tomoe is an introvert… somehow she reminds me of myself a bit. Shame that they tak sempat have children cos Tomoe sacrificed herself for the one she loves *__* how noble! ❤

3. ZERO x Karin Kouzuki (Code Geass)

  • Agak pelik… not Lelouch x Kallen. But ZERO x Karin. I have this fetish for leader x subordinate relationship. It’s kinda one-sided, but I admire how Karin looks up to zero. Well, I haven’t watched R2 so i dunno what happened between them really.

4. Kuno x Nabiki (Ranma ½)

  • actually, they’re just supporting characters and they’re a minor pair. Well, they did not exactly officially declare themselves as a couple, but they have the potential. Kuno and Nabiki are classmates, and Kuno is after Nabiki’s tsundere sister. Nabiki on the other hand, betrays her sister buy selling her pics to the perverted self-proclaim “Blue Thunder” just for the money. A filler episode in the anime showed that Nabiki is meant for Kuno, but whether it’s true or not remains a mystery. But I like seeing them putting their heads together… besides Kuno is filthy rich, Nabiki should just marry him for the money XD.

5. Seifer x Fuujin (Final Fantasy VIII)

  • Not an official pairing either, but potential in my eyes. This is another leader x subordinate relationship which I fancy so much. Seifer is an arrogant character who failed his SeeD exams a couple of times while being followed around by his cronies; the dumb Raijin and the tough Fuujin. Fuujin suka cakap sepatah2, with a loud voice. She’s probably like Kallen, admiring Seifer from afar. Only once in the game she softens her voice preventing Seifer to go rampage. and that is sweet ^w^

6. Naruto x Hinata (Naruto)

  • Cos I don’t see any chemistry between Sakura and Naruto (probably see some in the 2nd season), I think NaruHina would make a cute couple. Since Hinata is the first person who acknowledged Naruto, doncha think she deserves to be his girlfriend? But I have a bad feeling her fate would end up like Tomoe… or maybe she has to marry Neji intsead >.<

7. Hiruma x Mamori (Eyeshield 21)

  • When opposites attract… and when great minds think alike. Wargrhgrh aku tensen tengok how their relationship progress! Sebab Hiruma is too manly to fall in love, and Mamori pulak…too angelic to stand next to the devil. Anyway…rasanye Mamori satu2 nye awek yg leh handle si Hiruma tuh.

8. Ryo x King (King of Fighters series)

  • Judging on how they first met… it’s kinda weird. They had a battle, then King’s shirt ripped off, then Ryo sorta treats her like a lady. King disguises as a man to participate in Muey Thai contest for her brother but dipandang serong once discovered that she’s a woman. What’s even better, Ryo’s dad approves of King and wants her to become the mother of the next generation’s dojo heir XD.

9. Tamaki Suou x Haruhi Fujioka (Ouran High School Host Club)

  • Tamaki may have charmed a lot of women, but I can tell that he seems to have sincere feelings towards Haruhi…although it looks more like he’s playing the role of a ‘father’ to her. Which I think is sweet still.

10. Natsu x Erza (Fairy Tail)

  • A potentail paring. I don’t like Natsu being paired up with the whiny Lucy… and he did go as far as eating some destructive power thing to save Erza’s life. Only a real hero would do that to a really strong heroine.

Fave Yaoi Couples

*fujoshi mode on* this is gonna be embarrassing >///>

Junjo Romantica

Junjo Romantica

1. Balthier x Vaan (Final Fantasy XII)

  • Not even an official pairing… but it’s what fujoshi often do, by pairing guys who are not meant to be a couple. Why I like them…is because of the master x apprentice relationship. Too bad they lack interaction in the game, but fujoshi would of course use their wild imaginations to make it happen!

2. Kakashi x Iruka (Naruto)

  • This is the first ever BL pairing that I ever got serious with. Back then I was still innocent, and limit myself to mild shonen-ai. I don’t see much of them in the manga… but since I watched the anime first, there’s a bit of filler in the anime and saw some chemistry between Kakashi and Iruka. I instantly fell in love with both of them ❤

3. Germany/Ludwig x Italy/Feliciano Vargas (Hetalia)

  • one word: CUTE. and they’re new on my top 10 list :3. This is when history gets freakin interesting…

4. Axel x Roxas (Kingdom Hearts)

  • Cos Axel is so obsessed in taking Roxas back into the organization…and gets excited when Roxas pretends to remember him… and Axel says he’d miss Roxas if he goes away…and what confirms that they’re indeed lovers (pure fangirlism) is when Axel says “He’s the only one who made me feel like I had a heart”. WAHHH *nosebleed*

5. Zack Fair x Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy VII series)

    6. Itsuki Kujo x Shotaro Kadoma (Hanazakari to Kimitachi e)

    • They are extremely minor characters… so you don’t see much of them. I wish there’s more cos Shotaro is a fcukin’ CUTE shota uke and Itsuki is a fcukin’ SEXY manly seme. I think I kept a pic of half-naked Itsuki >///>. The best scene for the two is during a dance party, where Shotaro had to crossdress as a girl in an evening gown and Itsuki grabs him while saying that the boy is his partner <333 so cute!!

    7. Kamina x Simon (Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann)

    • They are soulmates! brothers! Because Kamina thrusts trusts the cowardly Simon so much, and because Simon so genuinely wants to protect the manly Kamina so much, how can I not love them?? Okay, I may not just like them as a pair, but I also like them as a team. Kamina means a lot to Simon that he made a bunch of statues of him after he died *cries*. Oh how I love seeing them go… GATTAI!!! *thinks dirty* <333

    8. Usagi/Akihiko Usami x Misaki Takahashi (Junjou Romantica)

    • Dalam banyak2 kapel di sini… they’re the only ones who are official lovers. YES THEY ARE LOVERRRRSSS. Usagi is the (fictional) gay character to begin with, being in love with his best friend for 15 years only to be heartbroken when his best friend announced that he’s going to get married (with a woman la). He’s kinda quick to switch his love to his best friend’s brother when the younger boy cried for him. Yang peliknya… Misaki still can tolerate living with Usagi even after getting molested when they first meet >_>. But apa2 pon… like my friend Jo said, their romance is sweeter than your average romantic comedy couples.

    9. Shin Soujiro x Sena Kobayakawa (Eyeshield 21)

    • Er… yes, weirdness. I dunno why I see something… lovely aura between them… maybe it’s becos of the rivalry. Even i dunno how to explain… but i’m sure there are better couples than this that I like.

    10. Stein x Spirit/DeathScythe (Soul Eater)

    • Spirit is Stein’s senpai… but he’s more like the dominant one. I still don’t know about their past, but they were partners for 5 years during their student years. Now they are teachers in Shibusen. So why did the fandom of this couple spark? It’s when Stein says to Maka, “So this is the child of the woman who stole my precious experiment”. ahem… experiment..? ;DDD

    Obviously…there are more of them. I just can’t think of who since I abandon a lot of fandoms XD.

    Fave Yuri Couples

    Jo and Meg

    Jo and Meg

    1. Barnette x Jura (Vandread)

    • In Vandread… it’s normal for women to be paired up. In this story, Men and Women lived in different planet. The manlier woman can make the feminine woman pregnant. Weird… there’s no scientific explanation to this. Men on the other hand… well, babies born in factories >_>;;. So… Jura once said she wants to get pregnant (with a guy) but Barnette thought Jura wants her to become the Homme. LOL.

    2. Jo x Meg (Bakuretsu Tenshi)

    • From how they first met to how they had to separate. But it’s kinda annoying to see how Meg seems clingy to Jo. jo doesn’t seem to mind much. Personally, I kinda prefer Jo with that chef guy.

    3. Chie Satonaka x Yukiko Amagi (Persona 4)

    • Yukiko’s shadow says that Chie is her prince charming… while Chie genuinely wants to protect her best friend Yukiko. *sigh* What more can I say?

    4. Milly Ashford x Shirley Fenette (Code Geass)

    • Cos Milly usha Shirley’s boobs lol. Okay…they certainly make a better couple than Lulu x Shirley or Lloyd

    5…. no idea anymoar D:

    I dont have much to explain in yuri cos I don’t fancy it that much…

    End of post. Oh before i forget…and before the day ends. I’d like to wish Happy Valentine’s Day to my favourite parings up there. May your love last forever no matter how fictional you guys are ❤

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